Guilty

I can't do this anymore.
It's so hard loving you when there's a guilt in my heart.
It's too late to stop.
I love you too much now.
There's no other way to stop this, unless...
You break my heart.
But that's impossible to do.
Instead of my heart that you're breaking,
it's hers that you're gonna break.
I don't want that.
I'd love to say yes to you, but..
I feel so guilty just by saying, "Yes."
Please stop. I can't handle this anymore.

The 16th of October

I just found this poem from this website. It's not so... umm well. You know. ALL THAT. But try to understand it. Sometimes, little poems can become meaningful poems. The name of the poem is.. A TRUE FRIEND.

A true friend
A true friend is the one who picks you up when you fall
A true friend is one that won't lie
A true friend is there when you call
A true friend is there when you want to die
A true friend knows just what to say
A true friend won't care what other people think
A true friend will help you find your way
A true friend will make sure you don't sink
A true friend will help you choose your path
A true friend will know when something is wrong
A true friend has to sometimes face your wrath
A true friend makes you feel like you belong
A true friend

Ashley Reese

What I'm saying is here, is that tonight I cried. A LOT. For 2 different reasons.
1. Because of a CD -__-
and 2. Because of friendship. (Duuh!)

Mostly about friends. Tonight they made me feel so lonely. And friendless. I just don't know if my happiness is worth sacrificing. I feel like just an idiot. I want to cry so bad. But when I cry it hurts so bad. But if I don't cry, the pain won't go away. So what should I do? Should I end my life right now? Or keep trying?