Happy Anniversary, IchAbay!

I just want to say happy Anniversary you guys! I wish you all the best and I hope your relationship lasts long.

I want to say a few words before I end this blog. Kind of like, a speech, I guess.

I've know you guys for a pretty long time. Maybe a year. I've known Icha since the first day of school. I've known Abay since he dated Icha, I guess. Abay has always had problems with me. Well, the whole girls of the class too. Icha... we're not that close but I feel like much closer than you think. But I don't know a lot about her. So, I don't really call it.. "close." I only know that she is the youngest sibling. And her father passed away when she was about 5 years old? And that she's half-Japanese. And she lives with her sister and brother-in-law or as she calls them.. her "step-parents". I know that she went to Putra Pertiwi Kindergarten. What else do I know? Oh yeah, I know her birthday is on September 8th. That's pretty much it. Abay... I have no clue about him. I don't even know his birthday. I'm trying but it's never reminded, I guess. I really don't know a single thing about him. We never talk cause he's a dude and I'm not that close with guys. But, he sometimes depends on me. He wants to know what Icha said about him when they have a fight. I don't but if I get permission then I do. He has a close friend, I think. Riza. He's also a friend of mine. And a boyfriend to another friend of mine. I don't know. I don't know what to say now. I'm confused. But the one thing I know, is that these 2 people. I love them so very much. They brighten my day. They are the best couple I have ever seen. This is a speech of their 7 month anniversary.  And that one thing is that... Their my friends.

July..might not be good :(

I have a feeling that July will NOT be a good month for me. I don't know why but it will! I have a feeling that my friends don't like me anymore... I can't prove it but I can feel it in my heart. I thought that going to Alix JHS would change my life, my friends, and everything else. But I was wrong. I thought that I could make new friends and be the best friend to them. But, again, I was wrong. I feel left out. Maybe I don't deserve living in this world. I want to die but I don't want to waste my hopes and dreams in the future.

In July, there will NO longer be a "7CanonBlast". There's gonna be a new class. The 8th grade. I need to do something to impress my "friends". It's hard for me to change because I'm such a shy girl. I pray to Allah every day. Hoping that Allah could change me and make my friends see what they were missing these past few months. But that wish hasn't come true yet...

So, July... I don't know what to do next. But in my head, there's someone saying that I should be..patient. And I will... :)